The Doc

Oh, I was so nervous this morning. I had my list of questions and then I wanted to talk about the "plan" for a next pregnancy. Dr. P was his usual self, so I had to suck up a little. Remind me if I forget that I need to scan in the drawing he made for me to explain what funneling is.
First of all, shouldn't there be a seperate waiting room at the OB for those who are NOT pregnant? And why are the only ones you see SO PREGNANT that you couldn't even guess they were just a little chubby?
Anyway.
He tells me there will be, assuming I get pregnant with only a singleton, a less than 5% chance of the same thing happening (premature rupture of membrane). He says with a singleton I should breathe a sigh of relief. He says that he studies and researches preterm labor-that's his specialty and that it's all going to be ok.
He says that if I, on the smallest chance, get pregnant with twins again, then he will (and I quote) "fill me a script for valium".
HILARIOUS, doc. So funny.
Funnier is that I want the valium now and I'm only THINKING about ttc.
He says he'll check my cervix, ya know, often.
If something is going on, we'll do something about it. But putting in a cerclage or giving me 17p is only for when something is happening that's wrong.
(I guess this bugs me bc I tend to try to be on the preventative side)
But there are risks with all of those preventative things, so you're taking a risk by using them if they are not necessary.
He says that since I had an infection once (if it was infection that caused the pprom, and not just having twins), it means I have an even lesser chance of having one again.
I said, "Sir, if I were your daughter-would you tell me to try again?"
"Oh, absolutely" he said, without missing a beat. Almost scoffed at the thought.

I feel good about it.
I feel mother-f&*(^&*^%&*%*&%(&* terrified about it.

A less than 5% chance. Shouldn't that make me feel better? I shouldn't complain about that. Except I've sort of defied the odds in everything else on the bad side of statistics.

Now, I guess the decision is when we should start. And hope that somehow we get lucky and actually get a second chance at this.

Hope you're all doing well, ladies. I'm at school right now, procastinating working on my lesson plans-one week for tomorrow there will be 30 kids shoved in here! Yikes!