Tomorrow is our anatomy scan. I can't help but be worried, yet hopeful-look forward, but look back.
It was almost exactly a year ago when we had the anatomy scan with Sophie and Aiden. It was on a Friday afternoon, it will be in the same place with probably the same ultrasound tech.
Brian and I left school at lunch and grabbed lunch on the way to the hospital. I was so excited I couldn't eat! We got there and I remember sitting in the waiting room waiting to be called back, both of trying to decide what the genders would be! Brian swore it was a boy and girl, but I wasn't so sure. I remember calling a friend and telling her I was nervous.
I will never forget the first time they came up on the screen. I looked at Brian and his mouth was literally hanging open-he couldn't believe what he was seeing. Watching the babies move and wiggle and suck thumbs and wave...I am pretty sure this was close to the happiest moment in my life. The look on Brian's face was almost better to watch than the screen (but not quite :). We got a ton of pictures.
I remember a very strange feeling when she told me that she couldn't give me a DVD because for some reason it hadn't worked. She gave me a quick 3 minute one and got that DVD to work, too. When we got home they were both blank. I remember feeling very strange about that.
Immediately after the appointment, we were on such a high and we decided to on a whim go and buy the minivan we had been looking at. We'd surely need it! We went, bought the van, and drove to my mother-in-laws to show it off and show her the new pictures. When we got home, we ordered two cribs, two dressers, and two gliders (one for each of us, of course!).
The very next weekend my mom came and I showed her the van and we went to make the babies' registry. Just me and my mom.
That wednesday, my mucous plug came out, even though I didn't realize that at the time, and then that Sunday night my water broke after no symptoms or contractions.
Tomorrow we decided to take the whole day off-so that it won't feel quite the same. We won't be going out to lunch. We won't be buying anything at all like a minivan. I've decided that if we are able to find out the gender, we will definitely pick a name and I want to buy a blanket and one outfir for the baby. I want the baby to have something of its own, for sure.
Tomorrow @ 1:40. Here's to hoping.
And remembering, too. I miss you, Sophie and Aiden.
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