Saturday, April 21, 2012

Three

This month my sweet babies spent their third birthday in Heaven.  It's so hard for me to understand; I can't quite grasp it, still, after all this time.

It was worse this year.  It was better this year.  It was the same as always.

The same people forgot.  I swore I wouldn't remind people and then I weakened and did it because I couldn't bear if they all forgot.

I allowed my emotions to derail me, momentarily.  I cried at work.

My husband sent me three deep red roses.  One for each year. 

I miss you so much, Aiden.  I miss you so much, Sophie.  It's so hard to be without you.

8 comments:

Holly said...

I love that your hubby sent you roses. how lovely ♥ it is hard to understand

Hope's Mama said...

Oh mama, oh yes. Worse, better, all the fucking same. It is just awful.
I miss them with you.
xo

Catherine W said...

Oh love. I'm so sorry. You're right. It's worse and better and the same all at once.

I'm just so sorry that they aren't here with you. Sophie and Aiden, your precious son and daughter xo

Nan & Mike said...

I imagine each year will be diffrent, but no matter what we always miss and love them...3, unbelievable...love u xoxoxo

With Out My Punkin said...

((hugs)) I have no words I hate this

Beth said...

Big hugs. It sucks how easily other people forget...but then I probably would, too, if our positions were reversed. I like to think otherwise, though. Wish your twins were here with you.

iamstacey said...

I'm so sorry I missed their birthday. I'm so sorry they're not with you now.

momoftwinkies said...

So sorry to hear about your loss. I can't imagine the pain. I think that lossing a baby(ies) is every mother's nightmare. God bless you and your family.