Tonight, I decided it would be a GREAT idea to do a little more research on pprom, premature rupture of membranes. I've seen everything there is out there to see already. This is just not great. I am scared out of my mind.
How do you do it?
How do you take the risk?
I know the outcome is so worth the risk, but seriously-the thought-even the passing thought- of losing another child is crippling. It bends me in half. Of course it does.
Every article says "The rate of recurrence of pprom is 21-32%." WHAT?
They all say, "We basically have NO CLUE as researches and scientists and doctors what even really causes pprom---we tell a lot of people it's a fluke. Others we tell it will definitely happen again. Some people we give a cerclage. Others p17 shots. We'll watch your cervix, only it probably wasn't the problem. One thing you can do is not smoke while you're pregnant."
Um, ok. Check. Got that one covered.
This is so maddening.
I was pregnant with twins-a multiple pregnancy causes your uterus to be gigantic early on, so it can cause your membrane to rupture early.
I had a horrible infection-the one that almost killed me and killed both of the babies-but no one can tell me if that infection caused my water to break, or if staying pregnant for 2 weeks after my water broke is what brought on the infection.
Can that infection happen again? Who knows! My doc says that it's a rare thing to happen, and since I had the infection, there's an even less of a chance. I don't know if what I just typed is a real sentence.
I am terrified to have twins again.
All I want in the world is to have twins again.
I need to make sure I don't have twins again.
Is there a way I can make sure that it is twins again?
How do you do this? Seriously?